I find it startling that I often have to force myself to start writing if I’m about to discuss personal or emotional thoughts and problems. I suspect it is not an issue with writer’s block, as I feel I can be perfectly creative if I’d like to, but more of a debilitating lack of interest in doing anything emotionally productive. And when I do force myself to write, it feels inauthentic and long-winded, overstated and absolutely too verbose. Sometimes, the effort feels too much.
I’ve also noticed that a secondary hobby that I was very interested in seems to be losing its grasp. I would be unhappy if I didn’t explore what sort of satisfaction or fulfillment I might receive as a reward. Too much self-doubt.
Sometimes when I try to fix myself, or ponder over the way in which my mind works, <tabbed away and forgot what I was going to say>.